Love is a lie. In the end it will always fuck you over. Every time.

(Source: moneyloveweedsex)

Considering making my blog all about one thing in particular so I can get more followers. Then after a little time passes going back to just blogging whatever I feel like. Random thought.

The other day at work I was on break and my co-worker said to me, “are you okay?”. I just looked at him and nodded my head. When he walked away I put my hands over my eyes and held back my tears. When I clocked back in he said, “I think you’re a liar, I don’t think you’re okay, I think you’re far from it.”. I jus smiled and said I’m fine. That’s my routine. Because smiling and saying I’m fine is faster and easier than telling people things who really don’t give a shit. I’ve become so closed off from people. There’s a wall in between me and them. I don’t even tell my bestfriend things anymore. I don’t tell anyone anything anymore. It’s so much easier that way.

I wanna feel the way I did when we first got together. Before you fucked me over and all the bullshit. Take me back to that, please <3

Honestly we come up with the best ideas when we’re high and most brilliant plans and things to do. Our dilemna is we don’t pursue the things we think of cause when we sober up it was just another stupid thought. In reality, it was genius <3

At the end of the day, I’m still the one for him and he’s still the one for me. Nobody really understands our relationship but we honestly don’t give af what other people think. Yea he’s done wrong but people fuck up sometimes. I can’t help it, I love the boy. <3 (:

I’m having a hard time letting go of you, mostly because I don’t understand the reason that it ended.

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Everything I want to be, is somebody I can’t be by myself. Because I need guidance, someone to keep me focused on going and becoming who I wanna be. Cause the person I am aint who I wanna be. It’s like the past 3 years I’ve changed so much and I got a whole lot smarter, but I got there the hard way. After all the shit I’ve had to go through to get me here, I’m just ready for a change. Cause I want to be a better person. I want to start going to church again. I want to be able to let down my wall. I want to be the person I was meant to be. But it’s harder than it sounds and I can’t do it by myself. I need someone to rescue me from all my emotions and bring out the me that I want to be, the other part of me <|3 …

Random thoughts

A lot of times relationships fail because people lose their feelings. This happens a lot because in the beginning it’s a chase and there’s all the flirting & hanging out, but then once you get the person it’s like all that stops and you just become comfortable with that person because you think “oh I don’t gotta try nomore I already got this person” . Even once you get who you want you still have to make it a chase and keep the flirting and talking 24/7 cause that’s how you keep your feelings cause you don’t think the person changes. Being in a serious relationship isn’t easy it’s a job and you have to have patience respect loyalty & honesty to be in one. Usually when the going gets tough the tough get going. Prove me wrong

Advice for guys from a girls point of view.

Anytime a girl is talking or telling you anything you should always be taking notes because that will help you in the long run.

If you can’t make me your number one, go out of your way sometimes for me, tell me goodmorning, and call me before I go to bed, take me out sometimes to do something fun or just have quality time, tell me now and then how lucky you are to have me and how much you care, talk about me to people, say to another girl or your homies “yea that’s my girl she’s amazing and the only girl I want”, take pictures with me, let me meet your family and you be apart of mine, be my bestfriend, trade phones for the day randomly, keep all my secrets, cheer me up, surprise me sometimes, and most of all stick with me through the bad as much as the good, then you can’t be with me. Men should be the man they want for their daughter someday.

A lil rap ?

Why you had to lie? Why you had to be so evil? It’s like demons were inside you and I couldn’t even see through, them, cause I was blinded, blinded by the bullshit. All the words you spoke they were fake, no true shit. It’s like I wanna say S-M-H, turn my back, spit on your name, then keep walkin away and I am. I’m doin fine without cha, thought that I’d be sad, lonely, lost without you but I’m not, see I got somethin bigger in store, and when you come back once again I aint gon’ open the door. Because I’m done. You want your freedom now you got it, a down to earth girl is what you lost now lets be honest was it worth it? Cause I don’t really think it was but then again I get mistaken by alot of stuff, so I’m gonna sit back, relax, and enjoy my life, and you can keep fuxkin round with any bitch that you like, because were over.

I don’t just blog a picture or a quote or a song because I think it’s cute, I blog things that relate to me somehow. Whether it be something I’m interested in, or something I want, or a way I feel, what I blog is a way to express myself. So in a way, by looking at things I blog you kind of get an insight of the person I am. Not fully, ofcourse, because you will never truly know me until you actually KNOW me, but these things are like little clues. This isn’t facebook, this is Tumblr, the place I can express myself.